Eight and a half months pregnant with our first baby, I moved 1000 miles away and in with family friends so I could be closer to my Knight while he would be in training for a few months in DC. After being there just 2 days, I went into labor- 2 weeks early- while my Knight was still in Texas, waiting to board an airplane to join me. And so, long story short, I had our first born son without him. I remember holding that precious little one afterwards. There are no words to express the emotions that surge through a new mom. Wonder. Love. Exhaustion. Love. Love. And even more Love. And awe. Then it hit me. This little guy was solely dependent on us! The heavy thought settled in. What are we doing? What were we thinking? We don’t know what we’re doing! We are responsible for this child 24 hours a day – we can’t drop him off with his parents – we ARE his parents! Do we even know enough to keep him alive? I had taken care of my 21 nieces a...
In Hot Pursuit of More & Less.... More of Him.... Less of Me.